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Company

You all read that list (that I can’t find to link to) and know by now that we’ve been running a hotel. It was my idea. We’re somewhere cool – tell everyone to come. Big hits in Seattle and San Diego. It helps us see more of where we’re living. And cuts our travel time a little. 😉

Well, KD and JC were here when I found out about Grandma. And as awful as I felt having to deal with it in front of them, I can’t imagine doing it without them. ND and NN being here probably got MK out of not knowing what to say or do. I bet he was grateful. I’ve had KJ and RJ here cooking for me and letting me nap. We all know these people aren’t just my company, they’re my friends. But it’s also nice to be reminded what a smart friend picker I am.

In other good news, it finally snowed again for the first time in weeks, just in time for ASH and NH 🙂 It seems like forever since I skied, I hope I can figure it out again!

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No Control

I’m feeling pretty lost right now. The reality of losing my grandmother still hasn’t hit me. The reminder stings – that nothing is in our hands, that we have no control, that we don’t get to pick when or how, not for us, not for our loved ones.

I want to move on, celebrate her life – do all those things people tell you to. I want to not be bitter, sad, angry or confused. That will take me some time. My grandmother was such an amazing part of my life- I wasn’t ready for that part to be over.

As we finally let go of a loved one who has died, we move into the last part of our “grief work”. This doesn’t mean that we become our old selves again. We will never be our old selves again. We come out of any kind of deep grief as different persons than we were before.                                ~Barbara Johnson

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Best Birthdays

Birthdays, in my opinion, are usually as good as you make them. I’ve had some really amazing ones, from the giant party my roommate threw me (ages and dates withheld on that one) to the last minute giant dinner party some really great people showed up for in Austin a few years ago. It’s always fun to get to throw out a few demands – people get to humor you with all they might normally not do in an effort to please you. I love skipping presents in lieu of events.

MK is biting the bullet this year and taking me again out for a favorite pastime – sitting with friends drinking great wine, eating good overpriced food. He takes no joy in a long drawn out fancy pants sit down dinner. We were going to go for Chinese, last year I demanded that be an annual tradition. We changed our minds and decided to hit the amazing seafood restaurant at Deer Valley this weekend. I can’t wait. I’m not eating for a few days to prepare. After that I’ve got company coming in (three different trips) which include other birthday celebrations. It’s going to be good, I have no doubts.

Getting older certainly doesn’t always feel fun. Just try to make the most of it.

What was your best birthday ever?

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Letting Yourself Go

Chances are no one that likes you has ever accused you of letting yourself go. We typically think of it as someone that stops things like, well, personal hygiene.

But I let myself go all the time. To me there are a lot of meanings to the phrase, and I like most of them. In San Diego we were letting ourselves go by really trying new things, going new places, taking on great adventures, reaching out to make new friends.

Here and now, I’m really letting myself go. And I love it. Pedi/manis are on the edge of my tub. I eat whatever I want, minus when someone makes that totally horrified “Are you serious?” face. The skiing must be helping, I haven’t gained any weight. No one dies if the dishes don’t get done (someone should have let me know that years ago). I’ve let go of the stress of family, of friends, of fear. I honestly let go each time I come down part of that mountain. That’s one of my favorite feelings. I’m not having heart attacks about company coming, I’m joyfully calm.

So my New Year’s resolution is more letting myself go. I’ll wash my hair for you, but I’m not promising to worry or stress about anything. I’ve done that enough for a lifetime. I’m going to find my joy or center or passion or whatever word you want for that feeling that things are just good.

Happy New Year, may you all let yourselves go.

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Great Inspiration

If you don’t know who he is, shame on you. Look it up. I suggest Netflix, Watch Instantly.

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Five Favorite Warren Miller Quotes:

  1. If you don’t do it this year, you’ll be one year older when you do.
  2. Adventure is the invitation to common people to become uncommon.
  3. If you don’t scare yourself at least a few times every time you ski, you’re doing something wrong.
  4. Don’t take life seriously because you can’t come out of it alive.
  5. The absolute speed of life is one second per second.

 

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Scaring Mom

Apparently if you fall and hit your head on the side even if you have a helmet, you can get whiplash. So after a fun day of skiing and a fun night of bars, you can wake up the next morning immobile.

Good news is I’ll be fine, but today watching tv stuck in bed was not fun. BB and TB took super good care of me and cooked us all the best dinner ever so I had a free pass to rest up and heal. Typical me that this happens with company but I almost think he was expecting it 😉 . I’ll be on bed/wine/heatpad rest until further notice…

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It’s Gorgeous (Trust Me)

I had planned a post today about how freaked out we are that Deer Valley (our Winter Playground we pushed back homes and children to pay for season passes to) opens Dec 6th – that’s two days from now – and there was no snow. It was pretty funny, really.

I had to delete it, it turned in to a lie. Thankfully, it has been snowing all day. I haven’t seen weather like this since being a kid in CT – and it’s so much more kickass when there’s a point to it. Up there we were just suffering, here I get to ski all over it. These giant flakes are serving a purpose this winter.

So I’m just a little frustrated because I wanted to share adorable pictures of me shoveling the driveway and goofing around, and the snowfall. It’s really beautiful here right now. But you’re just going to have to take my word for it. No matter what I do I can’t get the pictures to come out. Like, with snowflakes. You’re just going to have to imagine me, cozied up in a sweater, under a throw blanket, by the fire, looking out the picture windows.

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No Comparison

There are only two things that SomeGoSoftly has in common with Dooce.

1. I have a blog.

2. I now live in Utah.

That’s where that ends. I was painfully reminded recently of the awesomeness that is the first blog ever to cause an uproar. Because hey, I’m in her state. I’m on her territory. I should be so good at blogging by now.

Not.

Her blog kinda set the standard other blogs fall short of. She’s got her own Urban Dictionary reference. She’s got ads. An income. Cute custom CSS blog design. I’m making myself jealous.

When Snippy first mentioned to me the big wide world of internet diary blog keeping…I was in a trance. I read some dude she pointed me to that I think wrote a lot about chickens or rabbits, I don’t remember. I read Snippy’s entire site. (At work.) And I read Dooce beginning to end. (Also at work…) I started this site. (Totally at work.)

I put up pictures. I tried to have an interesting life to tell y’all about. I made friends that hate blogs read this site by not calling. I moved around. Well, maybe that wasn’t for the sake of the site but you get the idea. So here I am, in cruise control posting when the mood strikes me, thinking that I can keep the love alive. Without so much as an afterthought.

But my pictures are crappy. And I don’t have cute dogs. OR kids. I’ve got Friday Fives. And we all secretly know that you don’t even find those very amusing. So instead of promising miracles of hilarity, I’m gonna keep being lame over here in my furry warm little internet corner, the niche about zombies and my dorky life. I’m going to keep on keepin’ on, so thanks to you (family and four friends that hit refresh 30 times a day) for your continued support.

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This Is Just A Tribute

So today I went ahead and did what I’ve been trying to since 05Nov. I got my In-Loving-Memory-Gone-But-Not-Forgotten-Sarah-Palin-Tribute-To-Freedom haircut.

That’s right, I’m now rocking a blunt cut of brown poofy in front if you want an updo and holy crap I haven’t seen short little bangs like this since I was twelve look. It’s pretty thrilling. I’m even wearing my glasses right now, and liking them for the first time. That’s how they roll up in Wasilla. I’m down.

All kidding aside, I’m not sure why bangs seemed like a good idea. They are freaking adorable, but they will only get in my goggles and get wet and then freeze all winter. They might not make it.

I drove myself in to the Valley (what people of higher *elevation* call SLC) for this ‘do. You can basically coast in neutral the whole way down, but coming up honestly feels like you’re pushing the car yourself. It feels like work. And we all know how not good at THAT I am!

Does Mormon land give me foreign policy experience?

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Good For Everybody

BB and MK are in the same business. And business is good these days. In all sorts of ways. BB is getting famous, and not from repeated blog mentions! TB and I are in the same business – having fun and getting skinny. Business is picking up. 😉

It’s not just waiting for the skiing and the guests and the friends that’s fun, it’s right here and now. I’ve been working on that and enjoying every morning I wake up to coffee in my big house, and every night MK falls asleep in front of a fire. I’ve enjoyed working on my all but horrific pool game. And finding my way around a new place. Hanging out with the world’s cutest kid is good. I’ve learned a lot from some great parents about what the future could hold. My kids just won’t be allowed to go to the zoo. Even if they are cute.

So that shot glass I bought MK today as a joke, the one I was going to use as my outgoing message tagline, that says “Eat drink and be merry, you might end up in Utah” well, that’s funny and all to joke about, but it’s not so bad here. In fact, it’s pretty amazing.

I mean, I saw three moose yesterday. I didn’t get a picture of them, but I did catch the snow-bow.

snowbow is a rainbow when it's snowing...

Beat that. 😉