Well, ASH and NH are gone, and we’ve got a whopping 4 day vacation until our next set of guests come. Remember, I keep telling you how much I love the company. That part is true. All my friends clean up after themselves and make such a little fuss they make for probably better company than I do when I travel. They treat me to super nice dinners and totally inappropriately extravagant gifts (NH) and help me pass time and move on from thinking about sad stuff.
I’m just sooo tired! I feel like I never caught up on good sleep. I’m up to two cups of coffee a morning, sucked on my afternoon skiing w/my hubby yesterday, and am kinda having the strangest dreams ever, that end up waking me up and making me very unhappy. MK has been very understanding and we spent the day in the basement playing LEGO Star Wars (dorks). I just want to get going again. Our next guests, SH and JM, are known for their buckets of energy. I’m hoping they can afford to lend me one.
In other news, the end of our lease is fast approaching and as you know the million dollar question is where to next. At this point I’d be happy to hear your non sucky suggestions. It’s getting a little frustrating. I’m all for back to San Diego but there aren’t any places we’ve looked at that blow us away. With MK changing his mind daily from Tampa to the US Virgin Islands (Do phones work there? Do they have grocery stores!??!) I am a little worried he’s going to be making this next move on his own. 😉
I’m always waiting.
Five Gifts I’m Not Getting For Valentine’s:
My Christmas gift.
My birthday gift.
My skiing a black run gift.
My long overdue dream purse.
Airline tickets to anywhere…
Well, the computer worked for one blog post. Then it died again, Hmpf. So for now here are some pics from the Utah Olympic Park.
After skiing the other day we went to see the bobsled World Cup practice runs. It was pretty amazing!
I was all ready to get back in the swing of things here on somegosoftly. ASH and NH are amazing guests and have helped worlds in cheering me up and helping me move forward. We’ve seen some amazing snow in the past few days and had great times skiing. Then the computer died. It was on the fritz in CT and kept crashing strangely. But two days ago it just quit.
Whether it ended up being a virus or hardware issue, it seems to be corrected for the moment. And just in time – there’s a lot of interesting events going down…TB joined facebook. That makes me laugh. SXSW is coming. That means I need to be able to immediately jump on and RSVP to the barrage of oncoming emails. NH is too smart, and ASH is too lawyer-ly, I need to be able to hold a conversation, so Wikipedia needs to be sitting here ready and waiting.
In other news, I miss my mom (FAMILY), I was told my makeup is not as awesome as I thought, and I’m skiing much better. So long as this computer holds up, I’m getting it back together.
Or else. I need your opinions.
Five Reasons I’m Thinking of Retiring Friday Fives:
- Not that funny.
- 80 is a nice round number.
- Was supposed to get others involved.
- I could take suggestions for other Friday themes.
- I could just post a regular entry.
You all read that list (that I can’t find to link to) and know by now that we’ve been running a hotel. It was my idea. We’re somewhere cool – tell everyone to come. Big hits in Seattle and San Diego. It helps us see more of where we’re living. And cuts our travel time a little. 😉
Well, KD and JC were here when I found out about Grandma. And as awful as I felt having to deal with it in front of them, I can’t imagine doing it without them. ND and NN being here probably got MK out of not knowing what to say or do. I bet he was grateful. I’ve had KJ and RJ here cooking for me and letting me nap. We all know these people aren’t just my company, they’re my friends. But it’s also nice to be reminded what a smart friend picker I am.
In other good news, it finally snowed again for the first time in weeks, just in time for ASH and NH 🙂 It seems like forever since I skied, I hope I can figure it out again!
I’m feeling pretty lost right now. The reality of losing my grandmother still hasn’t hit me. The reminder stings – that nothing is in our hands, that we have no control, that we don’t get to pick when or how, not for us, not for our loved ones.
I want to move on, celebrate her life – do all those things people tell you to. I want to not be bitter, sad, angry or confused. That will take me some time. My grandmother was such an amazing part of my life- I wasn’t ready for that part to be over.
As we finally let go of a loved one who has died, we move into the last part of our “grief work”. This doesn’t mean that we become our old selves again. We will never be our old selves again. We come out of any kind of deep grief as different persons than we were before. ~Barbara Johnson